Open-up
Being open about my life is sometimes a messy thing for me. I'm still having hard times in telling ppl about my struggles esp whats inside my family. But I have learned that this is needed for my complete healing and restoration. I have tried to do it several times. And I just did again today. It was still messy for me. I have realized that actually I still have this fear in my heart. Fear of man's opinion. Fear of rejection. Fear of being judged. Fear of being pitied. Fear of the unknown. What if they find out about me and my parents. What would they think. How would they see me afterwards. Would they still be the same? Would I still be the same to them? All these questions and worries have trapped me into a fearful prison and never ending dilemma. As much as I want to speak the truth about my life and let God be glorified over my story, I still have this doubt in my heart. What if. How if. Oh God. What am I supposed to do. I want to break free. I really want t...